I was so scared. I couldn't do my job, I was having trouble thinking, I was about to lose my apartment. The OCD was bad. It became harder to keep my plight to myself.
I was at the doorstep of a homeless shelter in Boston. So many secrets to keep-keep it together.
My situation changed. I am getting the help I need, but I have to work very hard. There were times when I thought I wasn't deserving of help-but that was OCD guilt knocking at the door. I now understand that. There is a lot of beauty to be seen in this world.
"Have Hope"-#42 Guided Affirmation from Youtube (this is not my original writing, but I listen to it everyday)
I have high hopes for myself and my world,
By being hopeful, I am not avoiding reality,
But, rather, I am giving a positive direction to my life,
I'm always seeking to see the good in people,
And in events that occur,
By focusing on the positive, even in apparently negative situations,
I am able to transform what is happening in a constructive way,
My optimistic approach to life is contagious,
And I find that people around me are becoming more encouraged about the future,
Together, we are creating the kind of world we want to live in.
I made a pound cake that's just about ready to come out of the oven. Baking is therapeutic. What is therapeutic for you?